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I'm surrounded by bullshit. I want out. I want a fresh start from it all. Call it running if you dare. Fuck it. I'm tired of it, & I'm tired of being reminded of it.
#FuckItAll

testing.

i just installed blogger on my clique. hopefully this shit works. testing testing 1 2 1 2.
BALLS.

whoa.

damn.
i ain't been on here in a minute.
i came on here to blog a bit, but i got so caught up in reading previous entries... & they made me smile (plus twitter makes it hard to blog, but i think ima get back into the swangathangs).
like... damn. i had to put myself in my own shoes (if that makes any sense). i gave mySELF a shoulder shaking, & it feels GOOD. Real damn good.

*sidebar* according to this loud ass conversation, somebody drank Cathy's milk. "keep collecting unemployment loser, get out of the house or i'm calling the cops" smdh. inside voice please & thanks.

i love who i've grown to become. there's always room for improvement, but the process as a whole, is beautiful. it just feels right & i like it.

what were we thinking?

"I should've known

It's right in front of me

Screaming girl just walk away

See it can't ever be

We carried on making our mistakes

Thinking love was free

Now you've taken part of me"

relationships.

Im Okay - Chrisette Michele

push play, THANKS!

ain't shit perfect, i think we call can attest to this.
let us rewind it a bit shall we?.. five years ago, had u imagined you'd be where you're at relationship wise? "is you happy?" ::t.i. voice::

my take on the whole shit is, that tolerance levels are set too high, too much shit gets ignored. when this happens, a comfort level is created. now how do you correct shit when someone is comfortable without shit makin a turn for the worst?

another thing that fucks us up are excuses. not even necessarily FROM our partner. WE get so caught up in "la-la land" that WE create the excuse FOR them.

when is enough, enough? what does it take for us to finally let go?
cheating?.. been there.. done that.
lying? .. PAH! .. NEXT
disrespect?.. oh this counts?
sadly those are 3 solid, commonly ignored, grounds for dismissal. If you constantly have to weigh the good with the bad, FUCK IT. It ain't worth it. The longer you stick around, the harder it is to move on. & when you FINALLY move on, it's THAT much harder to actually open up for the next one. no bueno.

here's a letter i wrote to some1, if it helps any:

hey *!# .
i read your status message, and i just wanted to say that Karma plays
it's position. If not today, if not tomorrow, then one day. I know what you're
going through in the sense of someone taking your kindness for a weakness and
basically just screwing you over. i've been there, just not as deep as you. I
even went so low as to tell him something along the lines of " i cant understand
why my grandfather who was a good loving whole-hearted man was taken from me, but your bitchass is still here living the good life."i mean.. there were more
curses and i hope you dies in there... but that was the basic message. sometimes
i (im sure you too) miss the SHIT outta him (the ex).. but it's an emotion that
will quickly pass. everyone deserves someone that will make them happy without
makin them cry 5x before that. a relationship and love is supposed to beautiful.
granted.. EVERY relationship has it's problems.. and if anything was picture
perfect we wouldn't appreciate it.. even the couples that have been together for
50 and 60 years went through shit.. they WORKED to get to where they are... so
even though every relationship has it's problems u just gotta make sure that ur
partner is willing to weather through the storm with you.. if not.. then let
them go and do what you can to just smile, and be glad that you're out of that
emotional rollercoaster. instead of wishing karma would kick him right in his
ass.. just smile and realize that he will NEVER find anybody like you.. EVER...
that's Karma enough.
i love you!
-e.

a bad relationship is exhausting. here's an equation that Icreated & learned to live by "ericKa>this". & though it feels like your efforts have been wasted, in the end it was a learning experience that has NO CHOICE but to make you stronger. At the end of the day, make sure you're happy, that's it.

yo.

here i am thinkin my shit was original. didn't get the reminder to pay godaddy. long story short, someone jacked my shit. fucker. so here i am.. back with the blogspot all up in my url (sounds freaky), but whatever, it'll do for now.

there's shit that i need to speak on.
& i shall.
fuck it.
I'M BACK.
ya miss me?

broken hearted girl

this reminds me of that old janet video. i can't put my finger on the name. i think madonna has one like it too.

must be love.

Cassie - New Music - More Music Videos

video is ok. im sorry, i love her cut. that's gonna be a bitch growin back tho.. trust me :/ . still feelin the SHIT outta the song! ;)

ps.. can sum1 explain to me y errthang is on fire? im confused.

keya.. i hate you!

C T F U!

quick story.

so errday i receive a new word to minimize my ignorance. sometimes i post, sometimes i don't; sue me. anywho the folk that send me the definitions also email advertisements.. here's the first line of the email...

"Ever wonder why we're not just happy, we're happy as we clam?"

How do I clam? I really need to know. How does one clam in this fuct up economy? I wouldn't be so offended had the words NOT come from dictionary.com , this is fuct up on so many levels. dictionary.com though? really? the world is going DOWN! no fucking bueno!

disport.

To amuse oneself in light or lively manner; to frolic.

i can dig it.

i needed this.

OMGGGGG!

La... i hate you! LMFAO!!!!!!!!!!!!!

stadiummusic.

cute...i think.. for some reason the background reminds me of windows media player :/

i mean.. the song is called.. "stadium music" and they refer to their love being like it.. but all i see are 5 black niggas in front of a green screen. where's the stadium? is the green screen what your love is like? sooo...your love is like fraud? really tho?

but will looks good... that's all that really matters.

specFATular.

i just wanna know YTF did i initially click this?