idiot me.

Black dog - Led Zeppelin

so yesterday a group of us went out to city island and some local bars in celebration of the QOTH's (Queen of the Hood) birthday...


hey, she TOLD me to post that pic..(yn)... anywho.. i asked amy (the bartender) for a greygoose and cranberry. when i get my drink there's no hint of red in it. anywhere. here goes the convo:

Me Amy

ummm.. wth is this?

'goose and redbull... right?

noooo i sd cranberry

ohhh im sry baby...

nah nah it's cool.. but can u just top it with some cranberry juice

::she tops it::

i drink it.. mind u i've NEVER had a damn redbull in my life. i actually convinced myself to never drink one. just like coffee.. YUCK. anywho.. i down it.. about 3 or 4 of 'em.. shits were reallllly realllly good!


in conclusion... i was drunk.. and awake.. until 5:00 this GD MORNING!!!! by the time i shut my eyes my damn alarm was going off.. i snoozed it about 5 times... but as previously stated, i started a new job. great. i'm litterally yawning every 2 minutes. my shower was painful. the water hitting my eyes could've been mistaken for ACID! Good GAWD!

i planned on going home and sleeping until sunday.. however tiff's bday weekend is far from over... great. maybe sunday i'll get some shuteye. i felt you needed to know that.

thank goodness for led zeppelin...

carry on idiots.

socialize.

Water - Lauryn Hill

it depends. sometimes i'm in the mood to.. more often not. hence the damn name. my moods change more than ya mama's draws. i just don't feel like being pissed off, but i'm often lead to believe the worlds gets a kick out of my misery. but a social butterfly?...nah. well.. occasionally.. idfk. viewer discretion is advised & proceed with extreme f*ckin caution. a lil incident just happened where i can see in my peripheral that someone was eyeballing me. i ignored. but after about 6 seconds.. which in all actuality seems about 8 years i acknowledged the presence and introduced myself. was that the professional way to go about things? eyeballing? just walk your raggedy ass over and say hello. idiot. hey i don't choose to be pessimistic. it comes naturally. me being nice is going against the grain. do u know how difficult that is? but i'm up for the challenge...occasionally.. i guess.

i don't really keep up with "lent" but almost the entire office is... so i guess i'll roll with the Catholic punches... correct me if i'm wrong, you're supposed to quit something for 40 days right? well.. lets see, i already quit

• smoking.. for real this time
• :x
• initially reacting with emotion

what's left?..you know what? lets see if i can be:

• punctual for EVERYTHING
• a non-procrastinator
• healthier... maybe jogging?

who knows what'll come of this. what i do know is that this is one of my favorite L.Hill songs EVER! if you can't vibe with it, it just means u suck & have no taste in music. your bad not mine.

hey by the way... 99 days.. ::sigh:: sanity.

anywho, carry on.

spellcheck!

Spell Check (Explicit Album Version) - Lil Kim

now i really have no right to crack on ANYbody's spelling error's. yet & still eye due. (LOL) however.. this shit right here?...

..granted, they coulda ran outta letters... but plz explain to me wtf brerkfast is.. please!.. & on the double! who wrote this? nelly?

bumba blah.

Before You Walk Out Of My Life - Monica
fuck all the bullshit, just hit play & read.
man.
i have so much to say that if i tried to get it all out in one post, it wouldn't make any sense (like it ever does).
this recession is fuct up; can we say peculation?..jk (yn)
people are idiots.
karma is real.
100!
i have so many GD pix to talk shit about.
& most importantly.. you suck.

if you didn't know, most likely you didn't, i started my new job yesterday. so far so bueno. the people are cool. it's just taking some getting used to. i loooooooved ***. but thanks to the recession, i was let go and surviving off of unemployment. something is better than nothing though. but damn. i have a lifestyle to maintain (sounds posh but it's FAR from it) and the income i was receiving these last couple of weeks took me out of my element. & me nah like dat.

also.. this song has NOTHING to do with ANYTHING.. it just came on imeem. idkw i'd do without imeem. it's THAT serious.

anywho. i'll try to sneak in a few posts throughout the the day. no promises tho. u no like?.. bite me!

i'm back... bitches! this is the amber show... doop doo da doo da doo! :)

nocuous.

very hurtful; noxious.
i like this & i shall use it 5xs today. decrease your ignorance people.

ma sylv.

push play por favor.

december 27, 2008.
i know i'm behind with the blogging. sue me. '08 ended and '09 started pretty messed up. (i will NOT cuss in this posting!). i can't even think of where to begin with this one.
growing up sucks. & as time progresses, people move on. & unfortunately ma sylv did. cancer took yet another one. it's ridiculous.

a few years back, she wanted a VHS/DVD Player. I think she mentioned it in like September... so I got her one for christmas... & she started CRYING! LOL! big baby! antiBIotics (pronounced anti-BI-ahhhhtics) lol. over the last 4 years, ma sylv & i got real close. she opened up her heart & home to me. though it's getting easier to view her pictures, it's still hard. i honestly didn't realize the severity of it until her final 2 weeks. even with the disease, she kept such a positive attitude.

that potato salad!, her accent, & those infamous facial expressions will be missed dearly. she let me eat the last of the cereal. that's huge to me. the numerous life chats, the lectures, & jokes are forever embedded in my memory.

it's a part of life that just absolutely sucks. it's getting closer and closer to home. i can't deal. shoutout to sam. it takes a lot to go through what she went through and remain semi-sane.

muhahahahhahahaa(i know how much sam is gonna LOVE this pic... that i will NOT be removing!)

::sigh:: ma sylv... i'm gonna miss getting on her nerves.