socialize.

Water - Lauryn Hill

it depends. sometimes i'm in the mood to.. more often not. hence the damn name. my moods change more than ya mama's draws. i just don't feel like being pissed off, but i'm often lead to believe the worlds gets a kick out of my misery. but a social butterfly?...nah. well.. occasionally.. idfk. viewer discretion is advised & proceed with extreme f*ckin caution. a lil incident just happened where i can see in my peripheral that someone was eyeballing me. i ignored. but after about 6 seconds.. which in all actuality seems about 8 years i acknowledged the presence and introduced myself. was that the professional way to go about things? eyeballing? just walk your raggedy ass over and say hello. idiot. hey i don't choose to be pessimistic. it comes naturally. me being nice is going against the grain. do u know how difficult that is? but i'm up for the challenge...occasionally.. i guess.

i don't really keep up with "lent" but almost the entire office is... so i guess i'll roll with the Catholic punches... correct me if i'm wrong, you're supposed to quit something for 40 days right? well.. lets see, i already quit

• smoking.. for real this time
• :x
• initially reacting with emotion

what's left?..you know what? lets see if i can be:

• punctual for EVERYTHING
• a non-procrastinator
• healthier... maybe jogging?

who knows what'll come of this. what i do know is that this is one of my favorite L.Hill songs EVER! if you can't vibe with it, it just means u suck & have no taste in music. your bad not mine.

hey by the way... 99 days.. ::sigh:: sanity.

anywho, carry on.