relationships.

Im Okay - Chrisette Michele

push play, THANKS!

ain't shit perfect, i think we call can attest to this.
let us rewind it a bit shall we?.. five years ago, had u imagined you'd be where you're at relationship wise? "is you happy?" ::t.i. voice::

my take on the whole shit is, that tolerance levels are set too high, too much shit gets ignored. when this happens, a comfort level is created. now how do you correct shit when someone is comfortable without shit makin a turn for the worst?

another thing that fucks us up are excuses. not even necessarily FROM our partner. WE get so caught up in "la-la land" that WE create the excuse FOR them.

when is enough, enough? what does it take for us to finally let go?
cheating?.. been there.. done that.
lying? .. PAH! .. NEXT
disrespect?.. oh this counts?
sadly those are 3 solid, commonly ignored, grounds for dismissal. If you constantly have to weigh the good with the bad, FUCK IT. It ain't worth it. The longer you stick around, the harder it is to move on. & when you FINALLY move on, it's THAT much harder to actually open up for the next one. no bueno.

here's a letter i wrote to some1, if it helps any:

hey *!# .
i read your status message, and i just wanted to say that Karma plays
it's position. If not today, if not tomorrow, then one day. I know what you're
going through in the sense of someone taking your kindness for a weakness and
basically just screwing you over. i've been there, just not as deep as you. I
even went so low as to tell him something along the lines of " i cant understand
why my grandfather who was a good loving whole-hearted man was taken from me, but your bitchass is still here living the good life."i mean.. there were more
curses and i hope you dies in there... but that was the basic message. sometimes
i (im sure you too) miss the SHIT outta him (the ex).. but it's an emotion that
will quickly pass. everyone deserves someone that will make them happy without
makin them cry 5x before that. a relationship and love is supposed to beautiful.
granted.. EVERY relationship has it's problems.. and if anything was picture
perfect we wouldn't appreciate it.. even the couples that have been together for
50 and 60 years went through shit.. they WORKED to get to where they are... so
even though every relationship has it's problems u just gotta make sure that ur
partner is willing to weather through the storm with you.. if not.. then let
them go and do what you can to just smile, and be glad that you're out of that
emotional rollercoaster. instead of wishing karma would kick him right in his
ass.. just smile and realize that he will NEVER find anybody like you.. EVER...
that's Karma enough.
i love you!
-e.

a bad relationship is exhausting. here's an equation that Icreated & learned to live by "ericKa>this". & though it feels like your efforts have been wasted, in the end it was a learning experience that has NO CHOICE but to make you stronger. At the end of the day, make sure you're happy, that's it.